Why? facing possible demise

I had blood in my urine 3 months ago. It was not bright red, but a dark brown. I went to emergency and was told to drink lots of water and see if it cleared up. I did and it did.

I have prostate cancer in my family, grandfather and uncle and after putting off seeing my urologist for three years(I had a rotor rooter job), I went in for an exam and they wanted a urine sample. It was as they put it "coffee colored" and was old clotted blood. This was a bit of a shock to me. My doctor did the usual rectal exam and said my prostate felt normal. That was a relief, but then he said I needed a ct scan as soon as possible. I went in a day later and was given a ct scan of my stomach and pelvis. This really multiple x-rays from different angles looking at my stomach, kidneys, urethra, bladder and prostate. I was to receive in the results from my doctor in 2 days.

Now to the point. Many people have faced this same or similar situation and I was experiencing it for the first time. I might have something very, very seriously wrong with me. It was high apprehension and having to wait. You realize that you might need to get your affairs in order. Well in truth I have been doing that for quite a while. I do have and recommend to all a "black box". A black box has all the information any one would need if you, to put it bluntly, die. It contains the following information:

NOTIFY

Doctor or hospice nurse

Coroner

Funeral Home

Clergy

Relatives and friends (list with phone numbers)

Social Security Office Social Security Number – xxx-xx-xxxx

Employee Retirement System

Life Insurance

long term care

auto insurance

monthly payments

memberships

Location Of Will

Executor of Will

Banking with password

checking accounts

savings accounts

CD”s

Credit Card Information

Investment information

Funeral Decisions

Cemetery

Gravestone inscription

Obituary

The nurse pulled up the ct scan on the computer and said, "I shouldn't tell but it's kidney stones" And I was happy. Ultrasound surgery is in a week, for a large stone that is threatening the urethra. When you get to be 70, you know life is short and you are grateful for life and know it can end at any moment.